There is a hall of residence/dorm and an adjacent vocational school near Osztyapenko where I pass by twice a week. As time goes by I hate the experience more and more. You stand at the bus stop for a couple of minutes and watch the teenagers waiting for their public transportation vehicles, trying to get the attention of others by acting stupid, being loud and simply doing "adult" stuff that makes them look pathetic.
The biggest shock comes when you eavesdrop and get glimpses of their conversations...
Jesus calls me to love all and to show no favouritism. Let me admit that I am a sinner and I fail... big time. It is no problem to "love" intelligent thinkers who might even act arrogant.
Social setting and lack of influence have a repelling effect on many. No, I shouldn't hate people for being dumb. Still, I do. It's not nice to be around them and would love to get away from places like the above mentioned bus stop at all cost. It pulls you down and you start suffocating. What impact an 8-minute-long wait twice a week might have on one... And this is all in my heart. That is spooky...
And the same feeling arose yesterday as I rode home from the Margit Hospital (instead of the one on Baross street :) The taxi driver was an ignorant machine who was acting as a stupid doll locked up in a cage without any individual thought, pulling "social cards" out, one after another. You never met him, he was acting and he was extremely dull, boring. Lord, forgive me, I cannot love as you do.
Szerintem Jézus szóba se állt volna ilyenekkel... Így nyilvánult volna meg a szeretete, de komolyan.
Posted by: endi | December 19, 2007 at 07:40 PM